Courage is not the Absence of Fear…

Courage is not the Absence of Fear…

5 PM – 7th Avenue in Manhattan

I’m not sleeping much these days. The up-side is I’m getting a ton of stuff done. Also, photographs of empty New York City streets, though eerie, have a certain grace to them. I only venture out every few days, but when I do, I’m struck by the same things: the exquisite beauty of New York City, the increasing number of people wearing face masks, the amount of space people are keeping between themselves and others, and the absence of noise.

Someone on social media posted an image like this one, with the caption (I’m paraphrasing) – Remember these? They’d be good to have right about now.

Every morning I go over the things I’m grateful for. It’s a routine at this point, something I’ve been doing for more years than I can count. Only now my list has increased exponentially. Things I once so took for granted as to not even make the list, are now at the top, among them are: electricity, food in our refrigerator, my husband’s breathing next to me during these early morning hours when I cannot sleep, but keep hoping I will be able to, the sound of sea gulls calling to each other, a friend texting or calling to check in, the little snoring noise our cat, Merlin makes when he’s curled up next to my head at night, knowing we have enough toilet paper for the next week, who knew that would ever make the list!? All the people in my life whom I love. The list is long. I’m so grateful.

Gratitude and fear are not easy companions. The fear may still be there, but its power is greatly diminished. The other day my husband and I were discussing fear and how insidious it is. He reminded me, “Courage isn’t the absence of fear, it’s going through it.” Here’s to courage, and noticing those thousands of moments of joy and beauty in every given day.

Merlin knows he shouldn’t sit directly on top of a piece I’m working on.
Until I look away, and then he does this…
My interpretation of this project by Sue Spargo is giving me great joy at the moment. For more about it, and my collaboration with Sue, you can go to my YouTube videos all contained in the Playlist #instastitchwithsue.

Courage is not the Absence of Fear…

New York City During the Pandemic

New York City has now earned the dubious distinction of being the epicenter of the pandemic. I know 6 people whose doctor’s believe they are sick with COVID19, though without the ability to test anyone unless they are incapable of breathing on their own, it’s impossible to verify, and another handful of people who are sick and suspect they have it, but again, have no way of knowing for sure.

What I do know is that here in New York City we are a population of more than eight and a half million people, living tooth by jowl, and like the rest of the population in the US, had hoped all of this would pass us by. Except it didn’t. And here we are.

It is bizarre it is to be able to stand in the middle of what is normally a busy street filled with cars and pedestrians and see no one.

At least a week before my gym closed I developed a cough, had some other weird symptoms and called my doctor’s office. I asked if I should be concerned and if it was worth getting tested, just to be safe, but was told they had been sent 10 tests, as had all private practices in New York City, with no indication of when or if they would be receiving more. Ten tests for a practice that sees thirty times that many patients in less than a week.

Obviously my rookie symptoms were not a high priority and so I began self quarantining, before it had become a thing. But it did make me wonder at the whole – Have you traveled to China? Have you been in contact with someone who tested positive? – the litmus test for knowing whether one should worry. The first question was easy to answer, Nope, haven’t been to China in the last month, but the second question was a bit harder, because technically, no, I hadn’t been around anyone who’d tested positive, on the other hand, I hadn’t met anyone who had been able to get tested period, so how was that even a question anyone could accurately answer? How can we know how many people are carriers? How many people are asymptomatic? Wouldn’t this be good to know? In fact, isn’t this essential information to have?

I meant to write an upbeat piece about how we New Yorkers are resilient in the face of difficulties, but once I began writing, that idea took a back seat, because what we are experiencing in New York City right now is what much of the United States may be facing in the coming weeks. And while most of us will be just fine, there are a lot of people who aren’t and won’t be, particularly those who are on the front lines trying to save lives. To all those people – please know that we are staying home thinking about you and appreciating all the risks you are taking for us.

I leave you with some lovely photos taken on my walk with my husband over the weekend, which was the last time I stepped outside, donning the now mandatory face mask and latex disposable gloves, our new normal when venturing out these days. Stay healthy and safe everyone.

Signs of spring

Courage is not the Absence of Fear…

Coping During The Pandemic

Since launching my YouTube Channel Ariane Zurcher ~ On the Other Hand on February 20th, I have gained close to 550 subscribers! Much of this is due to the enthusiasm shown to me by the members of the private FaceBook group, Friends Who Like Sue Spargo Folk Art Quilts (thank you everyone!) and my friend Anna Bates, who has been so generous and thoughtful in giving my tutorials a plug. I met Anna at one of Sue Spargo‘s not-to-be-missed workshops held by MISA (Madeline Island School of the Arts) in Tucson, Arizona. Anna has a blog and a popular YouTube Channel, Quilt Roadies, as well as a weekly blog on Alex Anderson and Ricky Tim’s The Quilt Show, which has a massive following of devoted sewers. So if you don’t know Anna, go check her out. She’s wonderful.

The Email I received last week from YouTube

Since that launch, (my first tutorial – needle turn applique for left handers) I have fallen into some semblance of a schedule. I’ve been posting new videos Monday, Wednesday & Friday. I try to post one tutorial a week devoted to an embroidery stitch from Sue Spargo’s Creative Stitching Book specifically for Left Handed Stitchers. The other two videos are either focusing on sewing techniques such as How to Make Hexies, How to Make Perfect Circles and How to Needle Turn Appliqué or tutorials on stitches that are not hand specific, in other words for both left and right handers. In addition I am blogging Tuesday & Thursday. (At least that’s what I did last week and am planning to do moving forward.) I still haven’t figured out how to squeeze in time to design new products, but am hoping to do that too, once I get better and quicker at shooting these videos and editing them.

Since life as we know it has ground to a halt, here in New York City, I realize that I’ve been managing my stress by working and am working pretty constantly these days. Between preparing, shooting and editing new YouTube videos, making masks, and coming up with new video ideas, I have taken on the task of revamping my various websites, including this blog, with the intention of eventually containing everything under one roof. As I have disparate sites: Ariane Zurcher Jewelry, My Etsy Shop, this blog and my YouTube Channel, it’s tricky to figure out how best to house them all under a single site. Added to this is the fact that I am not a computer geek and not only do not know the terminology, I also don’t know how to do any of that, but I’m learning. And what better way to spend this time of self quarantine than to do all of that or at least this is what I tell myself. I also am not sleeping much…

At some point this blog will get folded into a larger site; until then I plan to keep posting Tuesdays and Thursdays here.

Stay safe everyone and, if you’re like me, keep stitching!

Fly Stitch Sampler

How To Make a Face Mask – And the Research Behind it

I spent this past weekend researching and making face masks.

I wanted to read as much as I could on the efficacy of face masks, since we’ve been given a great deal of differing opinions. When the U.S. began talking about COVID19 it was generally advised that we not buy and wear face masks. It was said that these were needed and worn in hospitals and that everyday citizens were not going to benefit from wearing them.

As the virus spread throughout the States, the wording began to change. People were encouraged to wear a face mask if they suspected they were sick so as to mitigate spreading their germs to others whom they came into contact with. And then last week articles began appearing asking people who know how to sew to make and donate masks. There were articles rating the best materials to use to make a face mask and on the CDC’s website there was this:

HCP use of homemade masks:

In settings where facemasks are not available, HCP might use homemade masks (e.g., bandana, scarf) for care of patients with COVID-19 as a last resort. However, homemade masks are not considered PPE, since their capability to protect HCP is unknown. Caution should be exercised when considering this option. Homemade masks should ideally be used in combination with a face shield that covers the entire front (that extends to the chin or below) and sides of the face.

So I began looking around for hypoallergenic material and elastic, only to find these things were hard to find, if one could find them at all. After a bit more research, I found a number of patterns and began testing them out. A few were pretty simple and easy to make, but the one I liked best was on a site called, Instructibles.com by ashevillejm. The reason I liked her pattern the best was because it had a sleeve enabling you to insert a filter, which sounded smart, and also would then be thrown away after each use, and in keeping with the CDC’s recommendations. Her pattern used elastic, which made it easier to take on and off and covered the chin. I also found that with a little tweaking I could adapt my face mask to fully conform to the wearers face by adding the length of the wire and adding two wires instead of using just one.

I decided that the elastic, now in short supply, could be substituted with hair bands as per the CDC’s advise: “Facemasks with elastic ear hooks may be more suitable for re-use.” I also wanted mine to be durable enough to go through the hot water cycle of a washing machine and a hot dryer as the masks should be laundered after each use. UPDATE: The masks should be sterilized after each use. I have been throwing mine and my family’s in boiling water for 20 minutes. The elastic is more likely to wear out, on the other hand, fabric ties are harder to put on and take off. I opted for hair ties.

I then set about perfecting my facemark, opting for batik fabric as it’s a bit denser than most cotton fabrics. I tried using a third layer of interfacing, but it did make breathing a little more difficult, and I found it claustrophobic, but others may find interfacing doesn’t hinder their breathing, in which case, if it were me, I’d include it. (I would be concerned about breathing in the chemicals present in fusible interfacings though.) According to the CDC a tissue can be used to cover one’s mouth, so it seems that inserting a layer of kleenex or something like that into the insert might be helpful.

After sewing up a number of masks, I went ahead and shot and edited a tutorial so those of us who are visual learners, could easily make the mask too. Finally I uploaded the video to my YouTube Channel: Ariane Zurcher ~ On the Other Hand and added a disclaimer with lots of links in the description including the materials needed and alternatives if those materials couldn’t be found.

I understand that people are frightened and it’s difficult to know whom to believe these days as there are a great many differing views, however I do think it’s important to try and follow the CDC’s recommendations whenever possible and do the best we can.

Let’s stay safe everyone, and try to be kind to one another. These are difficult times and we are all doing the best we can to help in whatever ways we can.

Courage is not the Absence of Fear…

New York City & A Few Things to Make You Smile

Here in New York City we are in a self imposed lock down, of sorts. Yesterday I had to get my driver’s license renewed. This is 7th Avenue & 29th Street at 10:45am yesterday morning.

7th Avenue & 30th Street Thursday at 10:45 am

When I’m not preparing, taping and editing new videos, I am searching for things to make me smile. The following are a few things that made me do just that, and one that is downright hilarious. A couple of these are bittersweet, as they are a direct result of the pandemic we are facing, but are interesting and uplifting never-the-less.

First is The Ellen Show – laugh out loud hilarious, so if you haven’t seen this yet, take a look. I was laughing so hard I cried. And Ellen’s commentary on the whole thing is equally funny.

Next is this image from the canals in Venice, Italy where dolphins are now being spotted swimming in the canals.

And then there’s this satellite view of China comparing pollution levels a year ago versus this year.

And finally who doesn’t love babies and their dogs?

Grateful to be inside with lots of projects and videos to make. If you haven’t yet, please go over to my channel, Ariane Zurcher ~ On the Other Hand. I have videos for beginners, left handers, right handers, with tips that I’ve picked up and learned along the way. My latest YouTube video covers 3 knots – The Colonial Knot, The Chinese Knot & The French Knot. I even threw in a bonus demonstration of a Beaded French Knot!

We are all in this together…

Courage is not the Absence of Fear…

When Times are Tough…

My version above of a meme by @stitchesnquilts that I saw on Instagram the other day and it made me laugh so I wanted to share my tweaked version of it. Because boy do I crave laughter right now. The meme below, another that has been making the rounds, made me smile. And who doesn’t suddenly feel invisible bugs are crawling all over your face? Or is it just me?

Another meme making the rounds that made me smile

It is impossible to write about anything at the moment and not mention the current pandemic. I live in Manhattan. An island that is home to more than 1.6 million people. That’s a lot of frightened people crammed into a relatively small space all trying to stock up on supplies in case they need to stay inside for a month (or by the amount of peanut butter, broth and toilet paper being bought) perhaps people are thinking longer term, it’s hard to know.

As I write this, I am aware of how little traffic I can hear, and it’s the middle of the day on a weekday. A time that is typically filled with the cacophony of city life: sirens, irritable drivers making their discontent known, honking horns, shouting voices, music blaring from passing cars, alarms going off signaling a truck backing up or a car whose space has been invaded. People are out and about, but the mood is noticeably different. People are standing a little farther apart, not like the push and shove that New Yorkers are known for. It has the feel of a 4th of July weekend (without the TGIF anticipation and relief) when huge numbers of Manhattanites leave for their country or beach houses and the city empties out, except the vibe is a whole lot eerier.

The mayor announced Sunday that all schools are now closed. New York City’s museums have locked their doors. Broadway is dark. Times Square, usually a haven for tourists, is eerily quiet. Store fronts are dark, their iron grates locked down. Think Will Smith’s apocalyptic thriller, I am Legend, minus the tumbleweed. Okay, that’s an exaggeration, but it is weird out there. And I keep wondering – how does one find the balance? Knowing that this is serious and life has changed, things will not be going back to what they once were any time soon, and yet steeling oneself from the contagion of panic and even hysteria.

Manhattan – the city I love

Someone compared these last few days to 9/11, but it doesn’t feel at all like that to me. In the aftermath of 9/11 there was a mourning mixed with horror and the awful knowing of just how hideous humans can be toward one another. Yes, there was the same kind of bleary eyed realization that all our lives had irreparably changed, but this feels different. Perhaps it’s how things are changing so quickly hour by hour with no end in sight. Perhaps it’s that there is no “containment,” no focal point, it’s everywhere and everyone feels at risk.

When times are tough, I have always found joy in creating. These past few years, that has meant in stitching and playing around with fabric, wool, silk, velvet, linen, ribbons, and threads. There is a zen-like state that I feel when hand stitching that is both meditative and incredibly calming. Time moves at a different speed, worries recede. There’s a whole community out there of fellow stitchers who know what I’m talking about. I’m so grateful for that. Community at the moment feels that much more precious.

From @stitchesnquilts on Instagram

A few weeks before life as we know it changed, I launched a YouTube Channel: Ariane Zurcher ~ On the Other Hand, where I demonstrate embroidery stitches, tips for sewing things like needle turn applique, how to make a perfect circle, emboss velvet and lots of other things I’ve learned along the way. The idea is to go through Sue Spargo‘s Creative Stitching book with the goal of doing a video for each stitch. Many of the stitches I’m demonstrating are not hand specific, in other words, whether you’re right handed or left, the stitch will be stitched the same way, but many of them are hand specific and for those stitches, I am demonstrating them for left handers specifically, though I’m also teaching myself to stitch all of them right handed too. I’ve received a wonderfully, enthusiastic response so far from both left AND right handers, and am working around the clock to keep up with the many requests I’ve been given.

https://youtu.be/4in3Y7me3gc
My recent tutorial

I love the comments people are leaving. It is life affirming to have a community, and now, more than ever. Thank you to all who have subscribed and commented and liked and watched. It feels good knowing that there are so many of us out there, stitching away during such surreal times. I think of all the people who know what it means to be passionate about textiles and thread, who are calmly stitching while a tumultuous world swirls around us. And there’s balance in that.

Here’s to all of you.

Here’s to stitching together.