Grief Comes in Waves
Grief comes in waves. Â People say that, and I know what they mean. Â The other day I was happily working away on a new piece, trying to get the elements to behave themselves and talk to each other nicely, when suddenly I thought of my mom. Â It was a tsunami of emotions. I had to sit down and just be still while the feelings crashed over me. Â And here’s the thing… this blog? It reminds me of my mom, because when I first began blogging more than a decade ago, my mother was its biggest supporter and commenter. Â I think she commented on every single post or nearly every one of them. Â That blog was called Emma’s Hope Book. It eventually reached a massive audience with thousands of views per post. Â And then it was time for me to move on.
I started this blog: Where Art & Life Meet. I wanted a place where I could write about my work and art and life and everything in between. Â And so my mother began commenting here too. Â I miss her so.
During the last few years of her life she began sending videos and funny quotes to a few lucky recipients, of whom I was one. Â I loved receiving them, especially because it was right when COVID hit New York City and all of us were reeling. Â The city was in lockdown, I’d just started my YouTube Channel and often Mom’s videos and messages were the one thing I could count on to make me laugh, so I’d post them here for all of you to enjoy too. Â I miss her so.
Whenever I see a funny video on Youtube I think of her. Â Sometimes if I’m doing a couple of things at once, I’ll catch myself thinking – Oh! Â I have to send this to mom!! Â She’d love it. And then I remember that I can’t.
Her favorite video of mine was this one that I’ve added below. One of her caregivers told me she watched it multiple times.
So when I saw the video I’m posting below, I thought, Mom would have loved this. This one’s for you, Mom. It won’t let me share via this blog, so you have to click on the highlighted text instead.
This is a message I’d pay attention to!
And this is another one that she would have liked because… cute animals. She loved animals.
I miss her so.
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